In over my head?

I am at peace when I realize there is a bigger game at play than the one I am participating in...

It's the business aspect of it that kills me -- drains the soul. I want no part of it. Ever.

It's true. I may be in over my head. At times it feels that way. I wish to start on a clean slate, but everything appears to be so tangled right now, that it seems impossible. I do not like what this world does to me and at times, I want nothing to do with it. Instead, I have dreams of changing everything; creating and impact so large -- the world will never forget it.

The next few months are about training my mind and body -- but especially my mind. The time has come for me to face whatever I am going through head-to-head. Above all things I do, I must not lose faith. I must remember.

Careful meditation, physical training and mental education will be my tools over the next few months.